Feeling so alone right now. Hate that its the middle of the night. Hate that it feels like I am the only one awake. Been thinking about things, not good when I am feeling so down and lonely and alone. Wishing our therapist was available. Wishing someone was up, to talk with. Wishing someone was around to hug. Wishing…wishing….wishing. Remembering and not wanting to remember. Wanting to vomit because the memories are too much. Wanting to tear my skin off because it is crawling. Just want to let everything out, but I cant. I cant and its killing me.