So I wrote an email to our therapist after the session tonight. I shared a lot in it with her. Lots of trauma memories, that I just didnt have the words to talk about during our session. Sometimes, writing is easier for me because I can formulate what I want to say in a sensible way. I didnt expect a reply, because she rarely replies to emails. But just now I was reading my email and there it was, a reply from her. Short, but full of so much love. Here is what she said
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Hi Carol anne
Thank you for sharing that with me. I have felt deeply touched and very connected to you in the reading of it. I no you have been through unspeakable pain and hurt, and am very glad you have allowed me have a glimpse of where you have been.
Eileen
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I really really needed that reply tonight. Thank you Eileen my wonderful awesome solid rock for knowing that I needed you and replying to my efforts at sharing some of my pain. Your the best!
Carol anne
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This is so very awesome. So happy for you that she replied….and that you can email…
You mentioned on our blog tonight about hating the no talk…I know that with our T..some of our most intimate or scary thoughts over the years have been by way of email..somehow in session we freeze up or something…we kept them all in a folder…another weird thing, handwriting out is very hard as well..but somehow typing it just flows so freely…something with the circuitry..we cannot explain it…so with this blog has helped us so much. She now has the link and reads it..and updated before we get there….I only shared bc of what you mentioned on our blog…if it is helpful at all as you mentioned in a way as well…
But very happy you were able to process in a good session and then come home and write and get such a good warm loving response…what a great night for you…
much love..xx
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Yes, indeed, a great night, she is amazing, and thanks for sharing, I appreciate it very much, It does help. Glad you can also share via email with your therapist and that she is able to read your blog now too. XX
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