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Abuse, Abuse survivor, Alters, Child abuse, Child sexual abuse, CPTSD, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Flashbacks, Mental illness, PTSD, Trauma
PTSD…
The overwhelming sense of panic as I start to relive the traumas of my childhood
The panic as I gasp for air
The dizziness as my head spins
PTSD…
The body memories, which threaten to leave me paralysed
The flashbacks of horrendous child abuse, which I am forced to relive every single day
The feeling of terror as I shake and tremble
PTSD….
The uncontrollable fits of tears, for no reason, but then there is one, it is not one that can be explained easily
The feelings of terror as a car door slams, and I think its a gun shot
The panic when using a knife to eat, thinking it is a weapon from so long ago
PTSD…
It is what we live with every day of our life
A stark reminder of our past
It is the vivid reminder that we survived hell
Multi-Me 
a reminder…but not the present. now you can see how strong you are and have been. now you can live, not survive.
remember to use your grounding skills and your mindfulness and your safe place when these memories try to suck you back into the past.
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Yes! I’m trying to do just that. Reminding myself it is past and I am not there now. It is memories, nothing more. XX
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I totally understand these triggers… Thanks for sharing this.
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Glad you can relate. Triggers are awful to deal with, I hate them. Thanks for reading. XX
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I pray that all of us who have suffered this are healed. God bless you!
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I’ve been told that I have PTSD. I had been triggered by seeing my ex-best friend and was kept awake by the same memory of him telling me that I had pretty panties for nearly three nights in a row. Luckily I wasn’t alone for that, but it took a severe toll on my ex boyfriend. I can’t be touched in between my legs because I remember and I can hear the voices of the past. I’ve been better in recent months with that, but I cannot be around too many or too loud people because that makes me break down and if it is prolonged I might start dissociating. I remove myself mentally if I am being touched for too long.
I hope this gets easier for those who suffer these things.
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