This month really sucks. I mean really. I want it over. I wish wish it was over and done with. My life is so miserable on a daily basis. What with flashbacks, body memories, thoughts, traumas that I am reliving, it simply is no fun. I’m just trying to have an ok weekend. A quiet weekend. But my head is doing otherwise, thinking other things. Its torture. There is also lots of switching amongst insiders. And different insiders feel lots of different emotions and stuff about this month. I’m just hoping I can get through it without any major incidents.