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Abuse survivor, Alters, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Emotions, Halloween, Mental illness, The past, Trauma, Triggers
I hate Halloween so much. And i’m dreading tomorrow night. I hate absolutely everything about it. The costumes, the trick or treaters, the Halloween commercials on the tv, it is all so overwhelming to us. I found out recently that Halloween originated in Ireland, that stunned me. I just wish it was over. I’m really exhausted from the constant flashbacks, trauma memories, overwhelming emotions that it brings up. Our system has been struggling so much over this past week. Its really difficult to cope with the pain and overwhelm and all the memories Halloween brings up of times in our life where we were being abused and we couldn’t get away. If you like the holiday, i’m genuinely happy for you. But i don’t. We don’t. Nobody in our system likes it and most everyone is effected and triggered in some way during this holiday.
carol anne
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA said:
I don’t blame you. Fortunately I live in such an out of the way and hard to get to place, that I will be very surprised if any trick or treaters show up. My PTSD self wants to clean my gun, which I only use for target shooting and which in fact lives in a box under my bed. I haven’t taken it out I’m years. And I won’t this time either, I’m just thinking about it, that’s how paranoid I am. I will certainly have all the lights on inside, and I have a motion detector in the front of the building I live in, and the back is fairly inaccessible and luckily I have a dog who is small but is a good watchdog, so I feel pretty safe. I hope you have a quiet and safe weekend!
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manyofus1980 said:
thanks laura. i am sorry the ptsd is rearing its ugly head for you. i can certainly appreciate the dilemma you find yourself in though. its hard to keep the symptoms at bay at this time of year. xoxo
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ambivalencegirl said:
I’ve been thinking of you so much this week! wishing there was a way to make it all go away… xoxo
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manyofus1980 said:
awe, your too kind. thanks for thinking of me hon. thats so sweet. xoxo
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multiplemindsdid said:
we be thinking about you all. its busy here aswell systemwise. its such a hard time xxx *hugs*
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manyofus1980 said:
thanks for the hugs. very busy here too. chaotic inside. xoxo
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DotedOn said:
Big hug, you are not alone 🙂
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manyofus1980 said:
ty paola for the hugs i appreciate them xoxoxo
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DotedOn said:
And many for for today!! One for every minute. Stay well ❤
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manyofus1980 said:
Paola, you are awesome. Yes I think so. ty for the hugs and hugs for you too my friend. ❤ xoxo
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