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Abuse, Abuse survivor, Abusers, Alters, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Hallucinations, Mental illness, Psychosis, Trauma
I just hallucinated. I hate that so much. I just saw one of my abusers. She berated me. She really got to me. I could hear her voice so intensely. It scared me. It really fucking scared me. Her voice was so vivid, the words loud and clear. I really hate this. It makes me feel less strong. When I hallucinate it makes me feel vulnerable. Seeing one of my abusers, their face, hearing their voice, makes it seem all so real again. Like I am back there. Like its happening all over again. I hate it.
Carol anne
mylifeinblogs83 said:
*hugs*. That sounds awful
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manyofus1980 said:
Thanks for the hugs. Much appreciated and it is awful. Cant sleep now either. Sighs…xoxo
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mylifeinblogs83 said:
Aww :/. I too am an insomniac tonight :/. Hope it gets better
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DotedOn said:
Hugs Carol Anne, just think they can’t do anything to you because the people who care about you are right there with you. You are not alone ❤
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kat said:
my advice is to try to ground yourself when that happens, or as soon as you can afterward, and just remind yourself you are in the here and now and are physically real, while they are only memories from the past and are not real and so can’t hurt you.
i know that sounds simple, and i know its not. i know it takes a lot of effort and focus, but i think you can do it.
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M.J.Neely said:
I’m sorry you had this experience and hope you feel a little better soon. Xx
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manyofus1980 said:
Thank you. I’m feeling better now again. It has passed. Xoxo
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starkinsanity said:
It is over now and you’re safe. Remember that they can’t get to you now and you are in the present. X
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manyofus1980 said:
Thanks for this great reminder. I’m sooo glad it is over and done with. I hate hallucinations so much. Xox
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starkinsanity said:
Me too, they are scary, but they are not real. Don’t worry about them too much. To me, it means that my brain is processing the trauma. X
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Ellie Sofia said:
That must have been awful for you. Sending hugs, Ellie xxx ❤
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manyofus1980 said:
Thanks Ellie! I appreciate the hugs and am glad to hear from you too. Hope your well? Xoxo
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Ellie Sofia said:
I had to delete my entire FB account and have been really upset (because of problems with my kids) so I’m not feeling great. Will try and blog later or tomorrow with my news 😦 Hugs, Ellie xoxox
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