Nice evening

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Animals, Dogs, Family, Grandparents, Illness, kidney failure, medical proceedure, Pets, x factor

tonight i went to my aunts, despite being sick with a heavy head cold that looks like its going down into my chest. our mom went with me, and our other aunt went also. we just watched tv and had a bottle of wine. we watched x factor, and then we watched long lost families. that programme is so sad and always makes me cry. we all had a long discussion about our grandad, who is their dad. he’s pretty sick now. im not sure if you all remember but a few weeks ago he was diagnosed with lung cancer. well he opted not to go for surgery. but…now his kidneys are failing. early in the summer the doctors said they were working at 25 percent…now…its down to between 10 and 12 percent. its not gonna be the cancer that kills him, it will be his failing kidneys. everyones so worried about him. he was offered dialysis but he is stubborn and doesnt want to go. i can understand why he wont go, it would be 3 times a week for the remainder of his life. i know he hates hospitals and he’ll do absolutely anything to avoid going into one. i had to explain to both of my aunts and my mom tonight that the reason the doctors are pushing dialysis so much is because it is their job to keep him alive for as long as they can. i hope nothing happens to him before xmas. i do think that once he does pass the family will be ripped apart at the seams. it was a sad discussion but one that had to happen. the joy in my night was seeing milly, our aunts new puppy, whose being really spoiled and is finding her feet in the house now. she’s such an amazing dog, so gentle, so placid, so good. i really enjoyed cuddling her and getting to play with her. when i arrived home nitro started sniffing me up and down because he could smell her off of me. he was none too pleased that his mommy was patting another dog. all in all though it was a nice evening. and on the plus side, i’m feeling a lot better than i was on friday and yesterday.
carol anne

Pets are sooo amazing

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Animals, Dogs, Family, Love, Loyalty, Pets, Working dog

My dog is so amazing. Really…

He loves me no matter what. Even when I think no one else loves me, he does.

I am so thankful for Nitro. Not only is he my eyes, but he is a great friend.

He’s a wimpy dog though. Afraid of vacum cleaners, puddles, wont step on manhole covers…oh yes he’s a wimp, but he’s my wimp.

I wouldnt trade him for the world. He is a really touchy feely dog. He likes to get up close and personal, rubbing his soft body against mine, for cuddles.

I can take him anywhere though. Honestly. He just sits quietly and obediently.

I ❤ my dog. He never ceases to amaze me with his love, loyalty, and funniness.

Busy busy day

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Blogging, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Dogs, Exhaustion, Life, Mental illness, Multiplicity, Therapy, Tired, Weekend

We’ve got quite a busy morning ahead of us. Our P.A Joy is coming, to take us to get our lip and eyebrows waxed. I dont particularly like getting that done, but I need to get it done so I’ll grin and bare it. Afterwords I think I might go to subway and treat myself to a foot long, with cheese, bacon, peporoni, chicken and south west sauce on it. Thats my favourite subway sandwich. Tomorrow I’m going away for the weekend with our mom and lil sister. We’re going to west cork, to a hotel until Sunday. We payed 190 euro each, but its all in aid of a good cause. All of the money is going to a local breast cancer charity and the hotel put on this fabulous girls weekend, for women only. There’s going to be lots of entertainment, including a banquet on Saturday night, and a disco with a dj, and a mentalist on the Friday night, and cookery demonstrations on the Saturday afternoon, and also on the Saturday afternoon we’re booked in for a facial each. So it should be a good weekend and I am looking forward to it. Our dad is going to look after Nitro for me. I went with our mom to buy his dog food yesterday and I was sure to get my loyalty card stamped. Now I only need one more stamp, and I’ll get a free bag of food. I was exhausted last night after therapy, and I slept like a log. I mostly always sleep well the day of therapy. I think its all the hard work that drains me.
carol anne

RIP Tess

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Alters, Animals, Death, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Dogs, Loss, Writing

This evening, our aunt had her dog put to sleep. Her dog was 12 years old. A beautiful collie, who loved her family and who loved life.

RIP Tess. You will be missed by all of us, including us here who werent part of your family.

You were so loving. You touched our lives in lots of ways. Most of all though you gave of your love freely and were very protective of those who you trusted. I’m glad you led such a happy fulfilling life.

Rest in peace. I know your not in pain any more and you will run free with all the other dogs in heaven.

xx

Here she is, this was taken last week, she’s enjoying the peace and quiet in her house.

carol anne

Summary of the weekend

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Animals, Cooking, Dogs, Food, Friends, Fun, Movies, Travel, Weekend away

So as you all know I went to visit our friend this weekend. I hadnt seen him in years. We had a falling out some years back, but recently we’ve made up again. I decided to forgive him for what he did, because he said he was sorry and in my eyes, an apology means a lot especially if its heart felt which his was. And everyone deserves a second chance to put things right dont they? I think so.

So I went to his house on friday. I got the 12 20 PM train, which took almost 3 hours to get to Dublin. That was the boring part, the train ride, and then the almost hour long taxi ride to his house. He has a guide dog like we do, his dogs name is sweeny. Sweeny and Nitro had a blast. I’ve never seen two dogs go so unbelievably crazy. Running in and out of doors, up and down stairs, around in circles biting and chewing each others legs, it was crazy! But they had fun and thats all that matters.

On Friday evening our friend made a big pot of chilli which was dellicious. Afterwords we just sat outside for ages with the dogs, because it was a beautiful warm evening and the sun had shone all day. The house was really hot and we wanted to stay cool so we went outside to the back, where no sun was shining. All the sun is at the front of the house. We just chatted, and caught up on all the news and stuff.

Saturday we didnt do much, more chatting, more fun with the woofs, and for dinner some gorgeous raps, and we also had a pizza between us. On saturday night, we watched battle ship audio described, thats the movie with rihanna in it. I know most of you wont really get this, but both of us are blind, and having that movie audio described made a huge difference to us in what we got out of it. If you’ve seen the movie, you will know its full of action scenes, it would not have been of any benefit for either of us to watch it if it wasnt audio described. Our friend also told me that all dvds that have come out since 2007 now have audio description built into them. That was news to me.

I got the 1 o’clock train home today. Again it was not a great journey, but at least the train had air conditioning on it. I met another guide dog owner on the way home, not my friend, a third person, who I never met before. That person and I sat opposite each other, and our dogs were so well behaved all the way home. You wouldnt even know they were there! I’m exhausted now and to be honest I’m a little bit unnerved but I’ll write about that in a separate post.
Carol anne