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Abuse, Abuse survivor, Cut, Cutting, Emotions, Enjoyment, Mental illness, Release, Self harm, Self injury, Trauma
What about self harm do you enjoy?
I enjoy the pain it brings. I enjoy cleaning the wounds, caring for them like nobody cared for me as a small child. They are mine. They are mine to look after and take care of and make sure they heal the way I want them to. For some in our system it is the blood they enjoy, the feel of it on their arms. For others, it is the release that cutting brings.
Carol anne
Multi-Me 
I don’t think I enjoy any of it, not sure if that’s possible. But it’s all negative…I hate me when I do it and hate me even more afterwards for not coping better.
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Well I do get what your saying. About the hate part. How we can hate ourselves for giving in to the urges?? XX
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i feel that way when i look at my stuff to end myself. when i have it all out in front of me, i am almost happy. i feel calm, peaceful, and everything is finally kind of right with me, knowing i can just do it, that i am the one in control, that it is up to me. that no one else gets to do what they want with me or my life anymore.
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Yes. You nailed it Kat. No one has control of us then, at that time. XX
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i enjoy the warmth of the blood jess
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Reblogged this on suicideasseenbythe1leftbehind and commented:
I know someone who cuts. she says its about the release…of everything and the control. she gets to be the to inflict it. its hers and she owns it. 😦
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